Friday, November 18, 2011

Fulfillment of the Trinity

This week has been a very rough week for me. I have experienced a few things this past week that I thought I would never witness in my entire life. I was proved just how disgraceful our society is these days. When Satan caught hold on me and put me on the wrong path it seemed as if no one really cared. The majority of the people didn't have a problem with me nor my actions that I was making. I, however, thought I was also keeping peace to myself. Everything stayed more calm than I thought it ever would. After God fought his battle with Satan over me and won he allowed me to realize that I was on the wrong path and that I, myself, knew that I was also. God put me on the right tracks and led me a very long way and helped me strengthen my faith in him. I was proven that without the trinity you can not make it very far in the Christian faith. Now that I am living in the presence of the Lord everyone is starting to realize what I was doing was only because they now understand that I am stuck to God and they are jealous they can't have a relationship like I have. They are wrong. They can! Until now, no one ever spoke up about my past life. It was as if I never even existed in the past. I was never even seen, but yet I thought I was the happiest person alive. It does not make sense to me how you do the wrong thing in life and it's never mentioned. Then, when you finally turn yourself completely around and begin to answer to the Lord everyone notices everything and they always have something immature or offensive to say. The more I think about this the harder it is for me to type because it irritates me and it causes me to tangle my words and everything gets all jumbled up. It is hard for many people to understand that God wants us all to be happy while we are here on Earth. There are many things in the bible that God allows you to do and make it okay but everyone wants to take those things and push them further and further until it creates sin and then you do not ask for forgiveness. It seems to society as if it is the hardest thing to do when actually it is the easiest. You are lonely. You have no friends. You have no one to talk to. You are upset. You are depressed. God is there to help with every single one of those things. Believe in him. Find God and make him your best friend. He will be the best friend you could ever ask for. I made him my best friend. We go every where together and we talk all the time. I even get to talk to him in school when the teacher tells me to be quiet during class! Come on! He can be anything you want him to be. All you have to do is let him. Thank you for reading this post. I hope you all enjoyed it. I had a great time thinking on this one. I want you all to find a new friend by the next time I make a post! Have a good night and God Bless,

Sunday, October 30, 2011

What Is There To Say

Okay, so I typed this very long blog and ended up getting stuck on what I was writing. I had to sit here and think for about 15 minutes about the post and ended up deleting it. I realized there was nothing to write about. Right now in my life I am struggling very hard in SEVERAL places. So, tonight I am not even going to have a post. I said to myself, "You know what? There is nothing to write about right now. I know what needs to happen and I am going to do it. So until then I will not have a post." I do not feel like I am doing things to the best of my knowledge right now at this point in my life. I feel that the only time I should post is when I am doing the absolute best I can do and then inspire someone. If I can not inspire myself then how can I possibly inspire someone else? This may not have been what you were really expecting tonight but this is all I feel I should do. God Bless!

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Living in the Darkness

I have been alone for these last few days. It has given me the chance to actually sit back and analyze some things. I would get into things that I was not supposed to, handle situations in the wrong manner and expose myself to my darkest enemy. My darkest enemy is the way I think. That's the point. I have gotten to the point where I do not think about what I'm doing before I do it. I almost feel careless. It does not matter anything about what anyone else thinks. I am going to do what Jordan wants to do. That was a big mistake for me. Ever since my Dad passed away a year and a half ago I feel like there is no one else that can tell me what to do. No matter what the situation is, I am going to do what I want. Here in the past hour of writing this blog I sat down and thought about what I have done. I thought about every little thing that has happened. I realized that I should not have done it and it was the wrong thing to do. Although someone might see the situation in which I done the "wrong thing" I can see that I shouldn't have done it to begin with and I want to correct it. I know what I done. I take all the blame for it. The thing is, you are not going to be able to see in me that I do clearly apologize. All you are going to see is what I done. That is what makes me look back and see that I was clearly responsible for my actions and to know that if I were to get blindfolded and beaten in the dark that no one would be there to save me. I want to take back and apologize for everything that I have done in the most respectful way as possible. Then again it almost seems impossible to do everything the way it should be done. I feel like I have closed everyone's eyes and damaged a part of their lives, then covered it up to act like it never happened, when in fact, it did happen and it really hasn't been fixed the proper way. I now feel like I need to live in the darkness for a change. I want to give everyone the chance to cover up my eyes and take back all the things that I took away. I'm so covered up in all of this mess I do not think I have enough strength to give it back to you. You have to come get it. I want to go into a fantasy land, close my eyes, and in the most smooth and softest way possible, dance my life away. I do not want to be felt sorry for. I want to be punished for the damage I have done. I lost my mom when I was 10 months old. My dad passed away a short while ago. I feel somewhat like I am the only one in my family that is truly going to make it somewhere in life, yet I have had to go down a road harder than anyone else. Everyone in this world always wants someone to feel sorry for them, give them what they want, then run off and you never see them again. I never talk about the passing of my parents unless someone else brings it up, because I do not want anyone to feel sorry for me. I want to be able to prove to everyone that no matter what you go through on your life that God is there and he put you on this planet for a reason. God has a plan and a view for everyone. You just have to accept the invitation to see it, which is what a lot of people these days fail to do. It doesn't make sense to me. Everyone wants to live a good and happy life. Everyone wants to take the easy road out. But yet, knowing that God is the answer, he is the one you refuse to go to, to get the answers you need. I have this feeling that there is so much more to say. I am going to end this blog with you to finish it yourself... God Bless,

Monday, June 27, 2011


I briefy want to say I am sorry for not posting in a while. I have been very tied up with things in my life. Things have been good and things have been not so good but God has pulled me through and I am here. I give him thanks!!

These last few days I have thought on my past situations very detailed. I have felt like I slipped away from the presence of God. I thought outside of the box and said "I've been here before. I can feel it. I am not going back and I can not do this again." I know I have made mistakes. I know it when I see them and they are not hard to see. When you are born only to know certain things its hard to get over them or know otherwise. I grew up only having limited thoughts on things. It took me to the age of 17 to realize it. You can say you are done and it's not happening again. You can say it all you want to. But the key is you have to believe in it. You have to commit to it.

I swore up and down I wasn't going to look back. The Lord was with me and I felt it. I knew where he was taking me. I made a mistake. I looked back. I regret it. I was doing the right things in life and I was enjoying it but the Devil found me and won again. It's not that easy to be something for 5 years and totally change in 3 months. You can have all the presence of God more than anyone and it's still not that easy. When I looked back. I missed it and wanted to go back, but at the same time I was so glad that I left. I think that is what took the stronger part of me. I left.

I know I am not the brightest star in the sky, but I know I have the brightest star in my heart. Jesus Christ. No matter what goes on in my life I know he is there with me watching every move I make to lead me, to guide me, and tell me what the right things to do are. I may get weak in the process, which I believe I done, but when you get weak the Lord is only telling you that you are getting stronger. When you get weak and keep going that is when you know you are actually trying and not giving up because nothing worth fighting for is ever easy. You have to keep going. Do not give up or look back because I'm telling you it's not worth it. Once you accept the Lord into your heart you will never want to live for anything else for the rest of your life. You might think the opposite but the opposite is always false.

I am going to tell you that anything worth doing is going to be hard and you are most definately going to have weakness in you body. You have to keep moving. Do not let go. Even if it gets hard do not let go. Hold on and keep your head held high and look forwards not backwards. If you are going to commit to something, you are going to believe in it and not act as if it's a joke. If you do not ever take anything serious nothing will ever be serious. If you have faith anything is possible. Do not let the person next to you or in front of you or even behind you distract you from the great things you can cherish every day between you and the Lord. I'm telling you it is the most amazing feeling you will ever have. So make a goal. Hold on to it. Work on it. Work with it. Take pride in it. Look it everyday. Then, fulfill it.

God can work some amazing miracles. I have witnessed several. Don't pass up the opportunity. If you see one, take it. Do not think you can get it later or something. You never know when the last time is going to be the last time.

I know this was not one of the longest blogs I have typed up or one of the best. But, you know... I simply type what is coming straight from the heart and no matter how silly it looks or sounds I truly believe that is the best way to get something across. I do not try to re-word or fix or edit or anything. I just tell it how it is. This is me and that is that. Thank you for reading this blog.

God Bless,

Wednesday, April 6, 2011


To start off I would like to apologize for not updating my blog in a few days. I have been extremly busy with school work and family issues. It all paid off though because I got 11th Grade Student of the Month today, I made a 100 on my Geometry test today, and I made a 92 on my History test today (not normal at all and no I didn't cheat:)...) I have also been going to church on a normal basis for two weeks straight now. I can tell you it is an awesome feling to feel when the Lord's presence is running through your veins. Just for the fact that I had a very long, and in some cases exciting day today. I woke up this morning realizing that I was late for school but something told me not to panic about it. So I didn't. I got up, got ready, went to school and checked in at the office like there was nothing to it. Although I had to sign the morning detention list for tomrrow morning I still didn't let it get to me. I told myself that it was my fault I was late, there was nothing I could do about it so I might as well do it and get it over with. Walking down the hallway I said what is with me this morning? I was late to school for he first time ever, I got morning detention, and I'm not upset. I told myself that it was the power of the Lord. You know, sometimes I will go to school and cary a "fake smile on my face" but today I smiled all day and not one time did I ever consider it a fake one. I knew the Lord ws on my side and I knew there was nothing going to stop me from doing anything as long as he was there with me. After break at school we had our monthly assembly that we have once a month to discuss good and or bad things that have happened and the students and teacher of the month. I of course walk into the assembly late also but I didnt think too much about it. When they called out my name for the 11th Grade Student of the Month I have to say I was shocked. I got up walked over to recieve my award and I herd hands clapping and the voice of someone shouting my name. Now I am not a big fan of caring that much about the way other students act towards me or anyone else in school. If I get picked on I just let it slide. I get to lunch and find out that some other guy that thinks he is the hot stuff, screamed out that HE had the biggest crush on me during the assembly. I knew I was being made fun of but everytime it was brought up during school today a picture of God popped into my head and I said "Lord, forgive them." I am going to admitt that about one year ago I came out to everyone as being a homosexual and I was in a relationship for 9 months. You are probably saying Jordan, why are yo telling this on your blog? Well im telling you this because that is one thing that is wrong with teens and young adults these days. We act very immature about everythig in life so, why not just get right to the point and tell it how it is. There have been several occasions where I have got straight to the point and it is understood better because sometimes it will make you swallow your own throat. I was a homosexual and was loving every minute of it. Life was good. I was in a relationship, I had something to do on the weekends, and I thought nothing could get any better. When suddenly in these last few weeks the Lord touched me and told me that there was something better.Everyone thinks that is it just so funny to make fun of a gay man. You know what? It's not. Two very close friends of mine thought it was the best thing ever that I was gay. They expected nothing of me, treated me like crap, and didn't give me credit for anything. "This particular woman" thought that she also could make me do anything, tell me how she felt, and act like I had no emotions for anything. She thought she could run over me and do as she wished. She would give me advice I would work on it then she would say it wasn't good enough, or you can do better than that and she would do this over and over and over. Soon I realized that all she was doing was trying to mold me the way she wanted me to be. When I figured this out I said, No. It is not going to happen. Okay, what does boldness have to do with this message. I titled it Boldness because we need to be strong and stand up for what we know is right. We can not let someone pull us down because all you are doing is giving the other person just what they want. All day I said to myself to not let anyoe pull me down. When I came out last summer I started school and continued with not the first issue from anyone. And now that I have recently ended my relationship and drew closer to God, talked to him, spoke with him, and worked with him I have found my life to be simple. The funny thing is that I have herd more people talk about me since I have ended my realtionship and got right with God than I have herd since the beginning of the school year. Everyone says well you can't just go from being gay to being straight within the snap of fingers and I was like you are right. You can't just do that and everything be okay. It takes a lot of dedication with the Lord and patience, but as long as he is right there you can do anything however or whenever you would like to. But ask yourself, how many of you that say you can't "just do that" actually have a relationship with God? Think on that. WIth him anything is posible and that is how I was able to overcome just what I have been thorugh. No, the Lord is not done working on me. In fact he never will be done. But he has worked on me harder these last 2 weeks than he ever has in my entire life. He is the light and the way of everything. He can show you the way when you can't see. He can heal you when you are sick. He can do anything. He is Christ. -Simple. I never knew you coud grow towards God as much as I have. I really never did. I went to church tonight and asked the Lord to tell me something. Before I walked in the doors I sat in my car and prayed and asked God to send me a message that I could understand and see the light. Sure enough He did. I had never be so focused on a lesson on Wednesday Night church service than I ever had. He was right. We need to put everything to the side and look up and see just what the Lord has to offer because he is full of many blessings. I do realize that I might not be putting everything in the right order in this blog. But I think of it as a voice in my head because its like I have learned so much about Jesus Christ and I can't learn enougth about it. I listen to christian music in my car. I sing to the top of my lungs. I carry a huge smile on my fae for no reason ( A real one at that) I think to myself the Lord is real. He is here, and he is going to save me from this terrible misery. He is going to forgive me from my sin and give me awsome power. There is not anything going to stop me. Sometimes I wish Wednesday night Church Service was everynight. Because if it were I would be there from beginning to end every night. I really do not know, it's just like it is a craving, and now I can't get enought of it. Last week the Lesson was on the Taste Test. I was taught that night that if we do not taste anything we will never have a craving for it. Well, not saying I made a mistake, because I didn't, but I got a taste of the Lord. Now I have a craving for it. It's like a crazy addiction and I can't get enough of it. If you are not right with the Lord you need to do it, and you need to do it fast because it is not going to be here forever and if you miss that chance I am telling you, you are going to regret it. So please, go to church, praise the Lord, lift him up high and scream and shout like there is no tomorrow. Until you are saved and born again you have not the first clue on how good the Lord can be to you. I can not wait to see just what the Lord has in store for me but I am going to be patient and just wait. I will tell you now you might not think that no one can fix a problem you have or any issues you have but I thought that same thing. I thought there was no way that anyone could understand me or how I felt. I thought I could never be fixed. The Lord always has a purpose for everything he does to draw you closer to him. Mine was homosexuality, but I am no longer a homosexual and I do not care if anyone thinks different about me because I know I am not alone in this run and for that mater I will never be alone for the rest of my life. Thank God! I will praise him till the End! I really am not all that pleased with this blog tonight for some reason but I would love to hear your feedback because I know somwhere in here a great message will be delivered to someone. Thank you and God Bless!

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Painful Situations

All day today I have been thinking on this blog and knew that tonight was going to be a good night. Today, I had to check out of school at 12:30 because I had a doctors appointment at 1:00. I had an ingrown toe nail. Gross. Right? yeah. It hurt extremly bad for several months so I knew I had to do something soon or it would be a lot worse than it already was. I got to the hospital and sat there till they called me back. You know. The usual. The doctor told me they were going to do a simple procedure right there in the back room and that 75% of the time it will not come back, but the other 25% if it did come back then they wuld have to go one step farther. So I have been wobbling around with one tennis shoe today. I also went to my local church youth group tonight for the first time in a very long time (Faith Restoration) and let me tell you it felt so good to go back there. I never knew how much I missed it. The whole time I was there tonight I was thinking to myself it feels so good to get involved with something. Not just something but something good and worth getting into. There is always something good in everything you do even if you do not know it. You just have to get out there and do it. I always like to start off with an intro of my day. Tonight I kept it pretty simple because my day was pretty simple except for the surgery. Anyways my point I want to get across you tonight is this... We have surgeries, operations, diagnostics, etc,. and everytime we are on our way to the doctor's office whether you want to admitt it or not, we always have that feeling of "Is everything going to be okay?" When I checked out of school today everyone was like, "Are you dreading it? Are you nervous?" and my answer to everything was "No." Because I knew that through Christ there was nothing to fear not one bit and I knew he was there watching over me. Listen, when Jesus was beat to death, whipped, punched, slapped, kicked, etc,. He didn't ask himself if everything was going to be okay. Because he didn't care if he was going to be okay or not. He wanted to make sure that WE were going to be okay. You see, that is why he died for us. To forgive US of OUR sins not his. We never stop to think or remind ourselves that he did this for us. We do not think about the pain and misery he went through to do it for someone else. That someone else is US. It's US. We together are who Jesus died for. and to top it off, When Jesus was nailed to the cross and raised up to look across his own people. He looked at them and said "Lord, forgive them." Can you believe that? You think about what he went through and then he is nailed to a cross and tells the Lord to forgive them that they know not what they do? We americans today are selfless. We do not think about anyone but our selves and it's not right. There are people out there in this world that need us. Yes the Lord did say that if we ask for forgiveness we shall be forgiven, but he also did NOT say Sit there and do nothing. He does not tell you everything step by step. That's what the bible is for. Everyone always says that you can not help someone with out helping your self first. That is not true. You do not put yourself first. you put everyone else besides yourself first. Because if we do not help other people we do not deserve the right to help ourselves. What im getting at is you complain about a surgery and not even pray to God to give you strenghth to come through with it, but Jesus Christ got ,literally, beaten to death and talked to no one but God then forgave everyone for everything that they done. We do not give our Lord Jesus Christ enough credit for what he has done for us, and I think it is about time we do something about it. This is ruining the lives of everyone and it should't be this way. Everyone needs to be that first one to stand up and take lead in something to give Jesus the credit for what he has done for us. I know I am not the perfect Christian but I certainly know right from wrong and I know the right thing to do is to get right with God because he is THE ALMIGHTY. Everything. So tying in with my blog from last night, find your perspective and know what is best for you to do to help another person and do it. That's it. Think about ways to help someone and help them with anything they need you to. There is no time to waist. Go for it. Do not let anything hold you back. Pray with God One on One and ask him how you can help and he will answer. I don't know about you but i'm tired of sitting around and waiting. I'm ready to do something and I'm going to do it. Not sure yet just what it is going to be, but it will be a life changing experience. You should try it sometime. Thank you and God Bless. If you would like for me to speak with you one on one please e-mail me at and I'll be so glad to help you. Also, please take my survey at the bottom of my page.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Keeping Our Perspective

I am going to make tonight a short night because it has been an extremly long and tiresome day. I did have a good day at school. I was tired but I did keep my feet on my toes and pull out everything I could today. I know this is competely random but I just have to tell you that today I got my hair cut for the first time in 3 weeks because I have ben too lazy to go get it cut and it feels so much better. I feel like I can breathe. Anyways, haha... Okay seriously, (cleared my throat)... My focus point I want to get to tonight is "God's Perspective." I went to a meeting for two hours tonight at Birkeley Bob's on drawing closer to God and I want to better express some ideas of what I learned tonight at this Catholic Study. You see, we see everything in a "close up" perspective and that is not how we need to see things in Life. We need to see everything through God's perspective. We watched a video that showed a quick image that was really close up in our face and we had to try and guess what it was. I guessed eyeballs and a heart. Random I know. But it turned out to be a walnut oddly enough to say. But, yeah. Then we watched another video, except this time it was a movie trailer on a movie coming out soon and it was based on a true story. It was about this girl that was a surfer and one day she got one of her arms bitten off by a shark. "In a meaningful way" this girl wanted everyone to evolve around her because she only had one arm and she couldn't do anything on her own and she felt pointless. You see, that is showing an example of how we see things in perspective. We always try to find the bad in stuff. We never look for the good more less even TRY to look for the good things in life. The girl eventually realized that she could do something with what she had, thinking this whole time that she couldn't, she got back out on the surf board and took a major risk. Surfing with one arm. She knew (and we also know) that God is there for us always, no matter what we are going through. She was wanting everyone to feel sorry for her but God had something else in store. See, God's perspective is always looking at the good in things. There was a boy with one arm that was a soccer player and quit the soccer team because he did not have enough mental strength to play anymore. So this girl talked to him and motivated him to get back out there on the field. She told him that life is always throwing risks in yor face and you can not just turn away when they do. You have to fight them back and take stand for yourself. Because when God spoke to this girl her life lit up and she began to help other individuals with disabilities just like her. See we see the things in life that are not that important and we cry about them. You could almost say that we as humans are spoiled. We take life for granted everyday. We do not care to think about the starving kids in foreign countries, or do we think about how much money we spend on a car, or a house, keeping our money froze up in a bank account because we are too stingy to give it out to the needy. You see, Jesus gave up his LIFE so that we could live with sin and be forgiven. We do not think about how we were just lucky enough to be born in a wealthy family, or become owner of that family business that has been handed down for generations to make tons of money and not even go to college for your entire life. People need to wake up and realize that not everyone gets the same things as other people and wish for the rest of their lives that they could just have not even a quarter of what some of these families have. You people that have hit the jackpot just by being born into a good family need to be happy you were but that's it. You need to be blessed and pass it on to some of these people that are less fortunate . Donate to charities. Help out in the community. Get involved with a church group with sponsors such as food drives and such. You want to take everything you have and hold on to it, knowing deep in your heart that there is someone, a hungry man, a starving child, a homeless family, and even poor families that have tried their hardest ans simply cannot survive. It's these things we do not look at. It's not that we do not see them. It's that we DO NOT want to look. And it's because We. Are. Too. Stingy! When you complete your work on earth, everyone is going to heaven all the same way. You see, you think you are too good to sit, talk , look, think the same, or be in the same class, etc., to someone a diferent color, race, denomination or gender. You are wrong! God does not divide people up in Heaven. We are all family through Christ Jesus. So you think about it. We are all going to heaven the same way and you are going to regret not giving that litle piece of bread left over from supper to a little girl that has to find hers in a dumpster or on the ground, or even a child in general that does not and can not even find something as simple as bread to eat. They starve wishing to have the left overs we throw away, the money we blow on houses "more like mansions worth MILLIONS" and cars, and the electronics we use for entertainment just to have a roof over their heads, a meal on the table, or simply a bicycle for transportation. What perspective are you seeing? Are you seeing your perspective, or are you seeing God's perspective? Im working on seeing God's perspective. You tell me what you choose. Heaven or Hell? God Bless!

Monday, March 28, 2011

Justin Bieber - That Should Be Me (Lyrics) - Official Music Video 2011

Awake Every Morning To the Gift the Lord Has To Offer...

Okay. So I just got home. I had a pretty good day today. It wasn't the best but I made the best of it. I started out at school with a pretty basic day at school. I got to Geometry and we were handed our test scores for the AHSGE (Alabama High School Graduation Exam) and las year I passed all of the except for the Social Studies portion. I was handed my paper with my score and I failed it once again, but only by 21 points. It was way much better than last year so I am upset that I didn't pass it, but I am also that I did better than last year. So I pray to God that this summer when I get an early attempt that I can study hard enough that I can pass it. Remember, through Christ all things are possibe. I got that out of the way and said all I can do is do better next time. I came home and called a lady at the local college here so I could get started on my Financial Aid. It's never too early to get started on something like that. I have a meeting next week to further discuss my personal needs. After I got off the phone with her I blogged for a little bit then headed off to the Skating Rink for a Private Party. I had a blast. I never go skating except for this event once a year, but I truly had a good time. I actually realized that you do not have to be with anyone specific to have a good time in the world. Yes, someone can make it better, but it is also possible to congregate with no one specific. The one thing that has stuck through my head all day was that I can be alone. What I believe ruined my relationship is that I am too self-independent. I do not need anyone to tell me what to do or how to do it. It irritates me when I know just what I am doing and someone thinks they know it better than I do . Throughout this blessed day I have had I would every now and then take a deep breath under my lungs and say to myself "I am free. God. I am free. I can spread my wings and fly where I wish." I felt like I was too tied down and couldn't go any where or do anything. I am sorry if none of this seems to be in order, but I feel that the best way to express myself on a blog is to tell it as it comes off my heart. It better suits me and is more explainable. This is only my second official daily blog and so at that I am going to give you my introduction to my life. I am only going to make it simple and I'll break it down in sections as I continue to blog... I am Jordan Thompson from North Alabama and I am 17 years old in the 11th Grade and am loving every minute of it.One thing people can not figure out about me is I love going to school every day. Yes, I will wake up and go tired, sleepy, hyper, energetic, simply just happy to be there. Under that every day stuff there is always a smile on my face. When people look at the outside of me they can not seee just exactly the way I do feel sometimes. I am not very good at pubicly expressing my feelings, but it's there. I can't help it but that's just one effect I have on myself. I do not speak up in school although I should. I am not the loud decision maker, and I am not the loud class clown. I have more school spirit that a lot of kids at my school but it does not seem like it because I am a shy individual and im not going to change just to please someone else to make them feel better. Wen I am at school I look like the type of guy with no friends, no one to han out with, and basically boring. I know students and faculty see me like this. I feel though as I have too much self independence. It does not bother me because I do not care. It's because I do not like to be around people all the time but if I want to talk to someone I'll go talk to them. haha anyways, getting off track a bit there... I love to be alone and live life to it's full potential. The smallest things can make me laugh and I love it. Laughing is one of my favorite things to do. I'll even laugh at things that are not funny and not supposed to be funny. "Which I have been looked down on sometimes for laughing inapporiately" but I can't help it., I have been through too much stuff in my life to regret or take anything for granted. All I want to do is be happy and successful in life. I love to volunteer jobs rather than work them as to be considered a "job". I have here in the past wek tried to simplify my life and live for nothing but the Lord because he has really changed my life and is still working on me every minute of the day. He is the number one reason I wake up every morning and I can't let him down. I know I made this blog a little long tonight but I felt I needed to speak this off of my chest. i had no idea in my head what so ever that I was even going to get on this topic but I felt something tell me I needed to so maybe it will be helpful for you. Thank you so much for taking time to read this post. It means everything to me. And as always God Bless.

Is the Gospel Real to you?

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Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is a beauty, admire it. Life is a dream, realize it. Life is a challenge, meet it. Life is a duty, complete it. Life is a game, play it. Life is a promise, fulfill it. Life is sorrow, overcome it. Life is a song, sing it. Life is a struggle, accept it. Life is a tradgey, confront it. Life is an adventure, dare it. Life is luck, make it. Life is life, fight for it! - Mother Teresa

Saturday, March 26, 2011

How Simple Life Can Be...

This past week I have dealt with a life changing experience. I ended an almost nine month relationship that I thought was going to last forever. On Thursday March 23, 2011 the Lord spoke to me. He told me there was something eating at me and bothering me really bad. There was. I was too scared to admitt it. My relationship had been tearing down these last few days and I knew something had to happen. The Lord told me I needed to listen to my heart as do as he says. I knew what it was going to be and I knew it was going to be tough. That following night before I went to bed I got out the Bible and started to read it. Before I opened it, I said Lord, allow me to open up the word of God so I can see what you are trying to tell me. He said "Just open it and read." I get my hands, open up the bible and begin to read. I was saying to myself, Lord, I am not finding anything in here that is helping me. I keep reading and it comes to me... I have to end this relationship. Immediately my adrenaline starts pumping and I begin to drown in my own nervuosly pouring sweat. I said, Okay. I am going to face my fears and do this and do it right. The following afternoon I am driving home from school and thinking to myself this is going to be it. The End. I get home and sit down at the computer and beging to type an e-mail. I explain all of the problems I have been facing, explainging all of the issues, and telling it straight forward of what needed to be fixed. I finish and click the send button. I get an e-mail back saying we can work this out and I didn't reazlie just how bad I was being and I know we can pull through this. Just give me one more chance. When I see that part saying just give me one more chance, I sit there and think to myself... How many more "just one more chance's" am I going to let slip before I actually realize that the last time is going to be the last time no questins asked. No if, and's nor buts about it. We come to agreement finally that this is what we need to do and it is going to benefit in good ways for the both of us. So I send a text and say we are done, there is no getting back together, and that's just the way it is. I was heartbroken and miserable but I knew God put that in my heart to do that for a reason and I have yet to completely discover that reason but I have faith that it's there somewhere and I am not giving up because the Almighty God can work in mysterious ways. I send my final text and trun off my cell phone, shut off the computer, and lay in bed to call it a night. I laid there in bed thinking to myself, is this the right thing to do? God said "Yes, it is and you will not be alone since you have just chosen the path in which I gave the light for you to follow."