Commitment

I briefy want to say I am sorry for not posting in a while. I have been very tied up with things in my life. Things have been good and things have been not so good but God has pulled me through and I am here. I give him thanks!!

These last few days I have thought on my past situations very detailed. I have felt like I slipped away from the presence of God. I thought outside of the box and said "I've been here before. I can feel it. I am not going back and I can not do this again." I know I have made mistakes. I know it when I see them and they are not hard to see. When you are born only to know certain things its hard to get over them or know otherwise. I grew up only having limited thoughts on things. It took me to the age of 17 to realize it. You can say you are done and it's not happening again. You can say it all you want to. But the key is you have to believe in it. You have to commit to it.

I swore up and down I wasn't going to look back. The Lord was with me and I felt it. I knew where he was taking me. I made a mistake. I looked back. I regret it. I was doing the right things in life and I was enjoying it but the Devil found me and won again. It's not that easy to be something for 5 years and totally change in 3 months. You can have all the presence of God more than anyone and it's still not that easy. When I looked back. I missed it and wanted to go back, but at the same time I was so glad that I left. I think that is what took the stronger part of me. I left.

I know I am not the brightest star in the sky, but I know I have the brightest star in my heart. Jesus Christ. No matter what goes on in my life I know he is there with me watching every move I make to lead me, to guide me, and tell me what the right things to do are. I may get weak in the process, which I believe I done, but when you get weak the Lord is only telling you that you are getting stronger. When you get weak and keep going that is when you know you are actually trying and not giving up because nothing worth fighting for is ever easy. You have to keep going. Do not give up or look back because I'm telling you it's not worth it. Once you accept the Lord into your heart you will never want to live for anything else for the rest of your life. You might think the opposite but the opposite is always false.

I am going to tell you that anything worth doing is going to be hard and you are most definately going to have weakness in you body. You have to keep moving. Do not let go. Even if it gets hard do not let go. Hold on and keep your head held high and look forwards not backwards. If you are going to commit to something, you are going to believe in it and not act as if it's a joke. If you do not ever take anything serious nothing will ever be serious. If you have faith anything is possible. Do not let the person next to you or in front of you or even behind you distract you from the great things you can cherish every day between you and the Lord. I'm telling you it is the most amazing feeling you will ever have. So make a goal. Hold on to it. Work on it. Work with it. Take pride in it. Look it everyday. Then, fulfill it.

God can work some amazing miracles. I have witnessed several. Don't pass up the opportunity. If you see one, take it. Do not think you can get it later or something. You never know when the last time is going to be the last time.

I know this was not one of the longest blogs I have typed up or one of the best. But, you know... I simply type what is coming straight from the heart and no matter how silly it looks or sounds I truly believe that is the best way to get something across. I do not try to re-word or fix or edit or anything. I just tell it how it is. This is me and that is that. Thank you for reading this blog.

God Bless,

Keeping Our Perspective

I am going to make tonight a short night because it has been an extremly long and tiresome day. I did have a good day at school. I was tired but I did keep my feet on my toes and pull out everything I could today. I know this is competely random but I just have to tell you that today I got my hair cut for the first time in 3 weeks because I have ben too lazy to go get it cut and it feels so much better. I feel like I can breathe. Anyways, haha... Okay seriously, (cleared my throat)... My focus point I want to get to tonight is "God's Perspective." I went to a meeting for two hours tonight at Birkeley Bob's on drawing closer to God and I want to better express some ideas of what I learned tonight at this Catholic Study. You see, we see everything in a "close up" perspective and that is not how we need to see things in Life. We need to see everything through God's perspective. We watched a video that showed a quick image that was really close up in our face and we had to try and guess what it was. I guessed eyeballs and a heart. Random I know. But it turned out to be a walnut oddly enough to say. But, yeah. Then we watched another video, except this time it was a movie trailer on a movie coming out soon and it was based on a true story. It was about this girl that was a surfer and one day she got one of her arms bitten off by a shark. "In a meaningful way" this girl wanted everyone to evolve around her because she only had one arm and she couldn't do anything on her own and she felt pointless. You see, that is showing an example of how we see things in perspective. We always try to find the bad in stuff. We never look for the good more less even TRY to look for the good things in life. The girl eventually realized that she could do something with what she had, thinking this whole time that she couldn't, she got back out on the surf board and took a major risk. Surfing with one arm. She knew (and we also know) that God is there for us always, no matter what we are going through. She was wanting everyone to feel sorry for her but God had something else in store. See, God's perspective is always looking at the good in things. There was a boy with one arm that was a soccer player and quit the soccer team because he did not have enough mental strength to play anymore. So this girl talked to him and motivated him to get back out there on the field. She told him that life is always throwing risks in yor face and you can not just turn away when they do. You have to fight them back and take stand for yourself. Because when God spoke to this girl her life lit up and she began to help other individuals with disabilities just like her. See we see the things in life that are not that important and we cry about them. You could almost say that we as humans are spoiled. We take life for granted everyday. We do not care to think about the starving kids in foreign countries, or do we think about how much money we spend on a car, or a house, keeping our money froze up in a bank account because we are too stingy to give it out to the needy. You see, Jesus gave up his LIFE so that we could live with sin and be forgiven. We do not think about how we were just lucky enough to be born in a wealthy family, or become owner of that family business that has been handed down for generations to make tons of money and not even go to college for your entire life. People need to wake up and realize that not everyone gets the same things as other people and wish for the rest of their lives that they could just have not even a quarter of what some of these families have. You people that have hit the jackpot just by being born into a good family need to be happy you were but that's it. You need to be blessed and pass it on to some of these people that are less fortunate . Donate to charities. Help out in the community. Get involved with a church group with sponsors such as food drives and such. You want to take everything you have and hold on to it, knowing deep in your heart that there is someone, a hungry man, a starving child, a homeless family, and even poor families that have tried their hardest ans simply cannot survive. It's these things we do not look at. It's not that we do not see them. It's that we DO NOT want to look. And it's because We. Are. Too. Stingy! When you complete your work on earth, everyone is going to heaven all the same way. You see, you think you are too good to sit, talk , look, think the same, or be in the same class, etc., to someone a diferent color, race, denomination or gender. You are wrong! God does not divide people up in Heaven. We are all family through Christ Jesus. So you think about it. We are all going to heaven the same way and you are going to regret not giving that litle piece of bread left over from supper to a little girl that has to find hers in a dumpster or on the ground, or even a child in general that does not and can not even find something as simple as bread to eat. They starve wishing to have the left overs we throw away, the money we blow on houses "more like mansions worth MILLIONS" and cars, and the electronics we use for entertainment just to have a roof over their heads, a meal on the table, or simply a bicycle for transportation. What perspective are you seeing? Are you seeing your perspective, or are you seeing God's perspective? Im working on seeing God's perspective. You tell me what you choose. Heaven or Hell? God Bless!